Like a married couple

The healthy period was supposed to start yesterday but started today. For breakfast I made a shake of banana, mango, carrot, black currant and alga’s. Strange green color but actually nice and was so much better than the normal breakfast for me (i.e. tea and cigarettes). The plan was also to work out but got a lot of exercise just to do stuff in my new and old apartment.

Me and Noelia basically do everything together at the moment. We do the sleep overs, eat breakfast lunch, dinner together, we meet with the kids…it’s kinda nice actually. None of us likes to spend time alone so

Right now I’m still awake and she sleeps in the coach beside me while I’m blogging, reading blogs, watching TV and laughing at all the crazy posts at 2+2.

Yesterday we went to a poker club, only been there one time before. Played a freeze out with some added money. Busted with two tables left after mine AJ ran into AA, button vs BB. Should have folded but put the guy on re-steal.

Today the whole day was spent out on my balcony in the sun. Soooooooo nice weather in Stockholm at the moment. At six me and mom went to my old apartment to clean it. Have a month on me before leave it but it was nice to get it over with. Mom is so great when it comes to help out and to make me do stuff

Yesterday I went to consult my hairdresser about all the stuff I planned to do with my hair. Two appointments it takes before I’m done.

Nah, no fun when Nollis is asleep and only crap on TV. Probably go to bed soon…but first Ali G Show. The best episode he ever made, the one with the drug expert ha ha ha!

Luck and love…

Someone once said that if you’re unlucky in gambling you must have a lot of luck in love.

I’ve had that thought on my mind the last days. I meet great guys all the time but there are just a few who really gets my attention. Normally they are poker players, that’s not odd with me traveling all the time on poker tournaments and only meet people in that world. Before my ex I met a guy, we had so much fun all the time and spent like three months together day and night. It didn’t work out and I kinda felt it from the beginning so I never hoped for anything either. Then it was the very, very complicated relationship with my ex. I could write a book about how relationships shouldn’t be based on our story, I would call it “RUN!”. After my ex I was really destroyed and knew I really needed to just focus on find myself and that was my plan…great plan until this guy started to chase me and when he finally got my attention I really liked the guy. In Vegas last summer though I realized this wasn’t anything for me and I ended the “thing” we had. After him there haven’t been anyone in my life except Casper and all my good friends and I was so satisfied with the combination of being mom/friend at home and then travel to work every third week.

WHY did I fall in love when I finally, once in my life, had 100% control of my life, my feelings and everything else? I will tell you why. It takes a lot for me to even get interested in a guy. To make me fall in love takes something extra. I met someone in February. His whole appearance got my attention a long time before this but it was in February I actually realized that this was a guy who I didn’t just like as a person and liked to hang around, there was something more with him. He was smart, funny and most of all he was honest. He was just like me but a guy, we talked the same language and had a lot in common. This was enough for me to fall for him. But I screwed it up, or I think we both did. My personality has changed over the years. I don’t let anyone make use of me, to many already done it which actually makes me turn my back on people if I just get the feeling that they try to. This is a bad characteristic I know that, you must be able to trust people…

Ah well…just some thoughts in my mind at the moment. I feel great though, not sad or anything. I’m a little bit bored of the fact spending time at home with out Casper one week in Stockholm but will try to make some plans for the upcoming week. This weekend have been great. Spent it with a lot of friends. Tonight we went to my friends across the street to have some barbecue. Finally there I fell asleep on their couch…another bad habit: I sleep on everyones coach I booked the flight to Las Vegas June 1st. Staying on Bellagio first three weeks and then the Palms the next three and a half. Looking forward to Vegas. Mostly the atmosphere there but also the sun, the pool area and to play some live poker which I haven’t done for a long time now. I will spend my summer with a lot of great people who I know will make it even better. Of course it will be hard to be away from Casper as long but I will make it up to him by spending three weeks vacation in July/August.

Studio54, sun and lack of sleep

Fabulous party last night. Thanks to my niece Tove who throw a fantastic party with the theme Studio54! I never experienced my own since I quit high school with two months to go… Lovely speach from my sister and Toves father and from her best friend Anna. The food was great. So much better than the last dinner receptions I’ve been to.

I’m a little bit sad that I cant be there when Tove graduates (in Vegas then) but promised to take her to Barcelona and the EPT in August.

After the student party I went to see Noelia and all of her friends at a place on Söder (South part of central Stockholm). It was the same gang I met earlier on Friday then they had a picnic in Tanto (a big park, very popular during the summer). I can’t even remember when I laughed as much as I did last night. I’m also very proud of the fact that someone hit on me and actually believed I was only 22 years old (no I never tried to fool him into that). Even if it’s a compliment a guy in 22 years of age is nothing for me.

Today Casper went to a birthday party for one of his best friends, Jack. Left him there at noon, went to pick up Victoria and took her as a consultant when I bought a sun bed for my balcony. I also got myself one new hard drive. A very, very cute one from WD/Mybook. Tonight I had V, Noelia and Claudia over for dinner. All alone now (Cas asleep) just grinding in the coach. Probably going to bed soon. Only had a few hours of sleep last night…

A few pics from yesterday/today:

Nollis in Tanto

Moi

“Tantolunden”

Tove, Christer, Tove, Pernilla and Tomas

Me and Tove’s father Christer

The beautiful hostess

Pernilla and Christer’s speach

Mother and daughter

Today my neighborhood was full of activities for kids…

I took Cas to the hairdresser today. Left him with Vic while shopping food and found him like this, very happy son even though he also wanted black stripes.

Tess&co

Today we visited Tess, Neo and Minya. So nice to see them and to hang out with them a little bit. I left Casper there while I was fixing my nails at Karin’s. Nice to have my nails done. Only the hair left to fix…or no actually the weight is something to take care about and that’s NOW. Really need to loose four kilos before Vegas to be able to wear my favorite dresses and to show public in a bikini *ha ha*. Can’t go to the pool at Bellagio look like this. Gym from Monday is a fact. The protein shakes also

At Tess place I fall asleep on the coach like I normally do. So did Tess so we missed half the performances of “So you think you can dance Scandinavia”. The ones we saw was great though. So much better than “Let’s Dance” actually, the whole show and the entertainment.

About the hair. Going blond again for the summer. Will try to book an appointment at Emma’s for next week or so. Maybe cut it a little bit to. I have 100% trust in her so I’m sure it will be nice. Emma is Casper’s godmother.

Tomorrow Casper is going back to daycare. I have a lunch date at one. Will be nice. At my favorite lunch place in Stockholm. Tomorrow night I’m going to my nieces student party with the theme Studio54. Will be nice. My sis, her husband and some other “adults” will be there too. It’s funny with my family. My sister was married to Christer who’s also the dad of Tove and Micke. Christer is also the name of my moms husband. Tove is not only the name of my niece it’s also the name of Tove’s step mom. My sisters name is Pernilla. My brothers wife is also named Pernilla. This is ju a few small “name coincidents” we’ve had in my family over the years. I’m glad that my sister is coming to the party. Haven’t seen her in a looong time and I was a little bit afraid of being the only one over 20 there *s*. Casper will stay at my moms place tomorrow to Saturday. Saturday and Sunday will probably involve friends and a lot of fun stuff. Weekends normally do.

I would share a bed with Anna!

Fall asleep in front of the TV at 21:30 last night. Woke up when Michael from PokerStars called me at noon. Think I needed some sleep.

Someone just said: “it’s horrible. all delivered in that kill-by-boredom voice”…we were talking about Barry Greensteins blog. The whole blog itself is hilarious even if the way Barry is talking could get a person on LSD to fall asleep… It’s one thing that Barry had a problem to sleep in the same bed as Anna but to go out with it all in his blog. It’s private man, take it up with her not the whole world. At least the guys on 2+2 have a lot to discuss now I would never say no if Anna asked to stay in my bed. Cute as hell, looks like a Manga character and seems very nice. I even said yes to William to sleep in my bed and it’s the same situation, known each other for years. Wouldn’t be a big deal. We even kiss on the lips some times, just for fun but still…NOT A BIG DEAL.

Anyway…except reading the blogs of everyone I know I went to IKEA and took Casper out to dinner. He got a very nice pizza but I went for the healthy alternative and took a salad with shrimps, keso and feta. I found Cas a jacket (phew) and a pair of very cute linen shorts. At IKEA I changed my mind on the book shelf and went home with just a few more very unnecessary stuff. Like the two pink boxes that match my curtains…will be so cute but I have no idea what I’m gonna do with two boxes. I also bought a black magnetic board. I already have one in grey and because of me having so much stuff on the board you cant see the color anyway but liked black better.

Now it’s time to play some poker and a lot of small things to fix on the computer, like not ignoring the ten conversations on msn and reply to all the messages on Facebook. Thanks for all the congratulations. The fact that people is happy about my success makes the winnings even better

Casper’s new jacket…very fancy

New summer clothes for the little person

Some for his mom

A little bit tired

Went to bed at eight. By then Noelia was already asleep in the coach (slept there the last two hours of the tourney beside me). Got woken up by daycare at nine when they wanted to inform me that they closed early today. Can’t even understand why they called me, when in the history have I picked up Casper after four in the afternoon? Went back to sleep after the phone call and forced myself up again at 13:30. Then me and N decided to go and pick up the kids and go to IKEA. Said and done…

First I took Casper to get him a few more Playstation games and a new controller. Makes it easier to have two when he has friends over. Then we went to get a birthday gift for grandma and try to find a jacket for Casper. This is where the problem started. First grandma wanted a RED shirt. Wasn’t able to find one so I bought a very pink one instead. Hope she likes it. Problem number two was to find a jacket. When you have a kid born in the biggest baby boom in Swedens history in 20 years it’s hard to find anything if you aren’t there the first day things arrive. For me who travels all the time and shop in last minute (read: same day as it gets to warm to use the winter clothes) I always have this problem, every single year, I never learn. The most fantastic thing was that I didn’t find anything actually but spend like 500 euros.

IKEA was nice, as always. Came home with a lot of not so important stuff like I normally do. A box to have bread in, a saucepan, a TV bench for Casper and a lot other things.

The diet doesn’t work out as I planned it. Instead of eating healthy I didn’t eat before seven tonight…not good at all.

Back to sofa mode, American Idol and CSI the rest of the night (probably like one more hour…sooo tired).

Oups I did it again!

I did it, I did it, I did it!!!! This is insane! I won another seat into the WSOP. Seven hours grind but it was sooo worth it! With 26 players left I raised with AK and got pushed all-in from the chipleader. Didn’t wanna risk my tourney so I folded leaving me on 20th place with 22 seats. After this I was card dead and didn’t play a hand. With 23 left and only one to go I was 22nd and the 23rd went all-in from button. Chippien called with A4 and was up against AT. Four on flop and the poor guy was out but the rest of us got a seat into WSOP. YAY!!!!! Two qualifiers and got a seat in them. I’m sooo happy but I think my father is the happest. He railed me the whole way, even his wife did

This wasn’t my only cash tonight. I actually played the “Pokerutmaningen” for Aftonbladet’s readers with 270 players in it (or something like that) and came 14th. TT vs Q8 felt sooo bad but now I don’t even care!!!!

The grind

Playing online and watching Bourne Identity. Still in the two tourneys I’m playing and in 15 minutes the third one starts. The most interesting of the three. The WSOP qualifier. Wish me luck!

Just got Noelia to come over and hang out. Made her a spinach soup with eggs and newly baked bread

Spring!

The spring is here in Stockholm. It’s even warmer than it was in Monte Carlo. Just spent an hour out on my new little balcony and just chilling. Soooo nice.

Slept 14 hours tonight. Really needed it. Only thing was that I woke up with nightmares three times. I’m in a nightmare period and it’s really frustrating. Know those comes from all thre stress last week but still. Not nice to wake up by a horrible dream.

Waiting for my father and his wife to come over and look out my new apartment and have a coffee. Tonight it’s grind. Playing one qualifier for LAPT Rio, gonna try to qualify for Sunday Million and then it’s the WSOP qualifier…

Tried to get Casper one day early but Alex wanted to keep him, I can understand him I will get my little ghost tomorrow though.

Welcome home

Came home, went to the store and bought A LOT of food and every since I’ve been in the sofa with my laptop just chilling. Nice to be home. The best thing is the food. Bought so much healthy stuff today. My stomach didn’t like all the crappy food in Monte Carlo. To much junk food in a week.

Me and Noelia had salad ala Lina (chick peas, black beans, sunflower shots, corn, feta, avocado and a lot of balsamic vinegar) and a little bit later she left. Got stucked on 2+2 forums. Read the whole mess with Brandi and her suicide. Very, very sad story overall. Feel so sorry for the girl, she must have felt so bad and asked for help so many times. I’m gonna write the story about her and her life for a magazine in Sweden. I asked them if I could write that one instead of the one about T6. I promised them seven pages but don’t wanna write about them anymore and this story is a story is a story I want to tell.

Haven’t unpacked my bag yet, still inside the door. Still to tired to do anything. Need at least ten more hours to be back on track.

From now it’s time for diet and exercise. Need to be fit for WSOP. Wanna bring all the dresses I bought there last year and to be able to do that I need to be in same shape as then. The diet shouldn’t be a problem. I always eat healthy at home and I have a problem to just eat anything when it’s warm outside

Snack tonight…quesadilla with low fat cheese, coriander and red union. Everytime I eat it it remember me of my first date with my ex Jonas. Weird how a taste experience can stay for so long.